#+SETUPFILE: ../../../template/level-2.org
#+TITLE: Checking in
#+DATE: <2022-06-17 Fri 17:51>
#+AUTHOR: vaeringjar
#+EMAIL: vaeringjar@land
#+DESCRIPTION: Just some timely thoughts about friends coming and going
#+KEYWORDS: blogging


* Disclaimer reminder

I write this blog for my future self and possibly any future
relatives. I don't really do social media anymore. My family/relatives
have a fairly good concept of our history, at least back to the
beginning of the 1900s, in some cases a little farther. Hopefully this
can serve as my part to providing a clue to what is going on from my
perspective.


* Catching up

An old friend sent me a message yesterday. I've been reaching out to
several friends online the last few days, maybe weeks, because during
the pandemic my social life has almost completely tanked. Especially
the last year has been bad.

I think I wrote about this in another post, but someone I know said I
live the bear life. Sleep, work, eat, repeat. I started to think back
in December that I looked tired, too.

One of my fingernails almost looks normal again. Maybe another two
weeks, maybe a month. Since January, from the accident, some parts of
me are taking time to return to "normal".

There are other things I don't write about on here. Mostly because I
don't want to share everything. But I think the general idea comes
across. Or, I hope it does.

So my friend sent me that message. I hope we can catch up.


* Equity and Contribution

This is intentially vague.

I have several skills, maybe a few talents. Even on my blog here I
hint at a few things in my resume, but I've had a fairly diverse past
in terms of work history. And most people just don't know about
it. Even my family, current family, might not know much about it
because things were different. Around ten years ago I lost one of my
closest relatives. Probably one of my best friends. And even they
probably didn't know everything about me, but they tried their best
and we were in each other's lives until they were gone. They died.

Around that same time, there was another person in my life who
literally left me. We had some good times before they left. At one
point it seemed like they were coming back, and I hung on for a little
while, but they left again.

So recently I've been thinking about that time in my life. Back then,
professionally I had been using a completely different skill set(s)
for my primary source of income. But it's complicated, because except
for 2021, I've pretty much always had a more than one thing going
on... And around that time I had more than two or three things going
on.

Getting back to skills, I also have a few things I'm really bad
at. And to bring up the accident again, some things that I was good or
capable at, but still have not returned.

One thing that's been difficult recently is being asked to help with
things I am just not good at. Or when I'm asked to go along with
something I know is wrote that I'm really good at.


* Reading

- https://docs.microsoft.com/en-us/dotnet/maui/
- https://docs.microsoft.com/en-us/dotnet/maui/user-interface/controls/blazorwebview
- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/GRPC
- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/PGP_word_list
- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Protocol_Buffers
- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/STUN
- https://github.com/xamarin/Xamarin.Forms/issues/8640
- https://www.reddit.com/r/dotnetMAUI/comments/uhzrxf/what_are_some_of_xamarin_forms_shortcomingscons/
